Loves, as many of you know, the past 18 months has seen my life upturned. I’ve gotten smacked in the face (and on the ass) with LESSON after LESSON after LESSON. It has been a full plate of uncertainty, fear, pain and loss.
But it was also unbelievable bliss, excitement, freedom and growth.
There’s always that question. Whether it’s with a spouse, a career, a location, a crazy idea or a tie to our past… there’s always that question. ‘Do I risk everything for the simple act of feeling more MYSELF?’ Maybe, if you’re lucky, you won’t be risking everything. But even if that’s the case, it usually FEELS like we’re standing on a cliff & wondering why the HELL would we jump when we could just stay here… at least we’re SAFE, right?
And from that moment, we begin our dance with Safety & Excitement. Because, let’s be real, most of us because of our current society have much more of one than the other (at least that is our perception).
When it came time for me to end my marriage (though it was a mutual decision), it was as if the drum beat of ‘Excitement’ was so loud in my ears that I couldn’t ignore it any longer. My true nature had been carelessly buried so long ago that when I finally was able to touch her & talk to her… she WOULDN’T SHUT UP. She was like ‘OH HOLY HELL, YES! I have finally made it to your consciousness and I am NOT letting go! We’re going to DO this now, so GET ON BOARD.’ My friends are so sweet to tell me how brave I was to start a brand new life… but I can’t really take all the credit. No matter how much I cried, how much I just pulled up my covers and tried to pretend it was all a bad dream… that my best friend of 12 years was still going to be with me & that I had SECURITY… My Wild Woman had a hold on me and she wasn’t letting go for shit. So I took a deep breath, and jumped with her.
Whatever you are contemplating in your life, there is no way to begin it unless you feel SO deeply and SO strongly the value of being true to yourself. However big or small, there’s a voice in you that knows exactly what it wants to do. All you have to know is that if you do not take that leap… will you be doing/being what is true to your inner Wild self?
Beginning this November, I will be helping you uncover the Wild Self, in glorious, juicy detail, and sending you on a journey of Discovery and truth. I choose to JUMP once again!
A Brand Shoot image of the gorgeous Shauna Karine – Soul Doula (new site & so much magical goodness from her coming soon!) And as you may have noticed, my Brand Shoot site is now gone (Poof! Yay!) to make way for a totally sexy & harmonious integration with my current website. Re-Launch coming VERY soon!!!